the whole and parts

interesting notes you put on the blog. i think the most interesting part in these collaboration is that you are training your 'trust'. i mean trust not only into collaboration or trust into work, but also trust to myself. i think this trust is something constantly in process and it is difficult to maintain it. so losing trust is also part of the finding trust again. this is how i experience it. i saw very interesting work of yael bartana yesterday 'and europe will be stunned...'

here is the link


and in one of the texts she says

In Mary Koszmary (Nightmare), a Pole’s appeal for Jews to return to Poland is an appeal for the return of Polishness. A Polishness that keeps confronting itself with its own ‘others’, with the Polish Jews. A Polishness forced to constantly ask itself about what it is and to use the answer to rediscover its own diversity and colourfulness. We are grey and homogeneous, and therefore sad and frightened, the Leader says in Mary Koszmary. Our trespasses against you have been all the heavier a burden since we have repressed them, and are being amplified by your absence, because our fear of Jews is actually a fear of ourselves, of looking boldly into our own unclean conscience. So come here to release the constrained Polishness so that, through your presence, we can look into ourselves. Bring us our joy and colours, bring us the diverse, multicultural Poland — that’s how the Leader’s message could be interpreted.

i mean this trust or better to say the fear of trust or lack of trust, is actually the fear of confronting the other in yourself. and i guess this is the most difficult work to do in collaboration. when i do not trust myself i can not open up for the other in me.

i also like the manifesto of the jewish renaisance movement

here is the full text

and my favorite parts are

This is the response we propose for these times of crisis, when faith has been exhausted and old utopias have failed. Optimism is dying out. The promised paradise has been privatized. The Kibbutz apples and watermelons are no longer as ripe.

We shall be strong in our weakness

With one religion, we cannot listen.
With one color, we cannot see.
With one culture, we cannot feel.
Without you we can't even remember.


the work, the movie she did is aesthetically super great. it is on the border to become pathetic, but it's not, to become sentimental, but it's not. it is absurd, clever, self reflective, funny and tragic in the same time and it opens new possible utopias that we are so hungry of....


i had a meeting about the workshop in october in den haag and we came to a name 'designing the future'. to design an utopia in order to movie forwards and not be stuck with nostalgic frustrations of the past and present.

i am thinking about our project may be we can call 'the future without aggression' and also create another utopia reflecting on current strategies of fear propaganda. may be we can start with examples the cold war propaganda, but then go back into the history and come into now. so that frame out interest of theater lies in dramaturgy of fear. how fear is communicated into our lifes to destroy the trust. the fear of 'if we are so different we still can work together as a society'.

regarding my last personal experience i have difficulties right now to believe in it. but i can not completely deny it, because if i deny it, i deny myself.

still a question in my head how can be the audience also a part of the collective work?

i was very inspired to do some music dances with object and i did some, but it didn't work with the camera. may be something for wednsday to work on.